just thinkin

OK, so i'm thinkin i like this thing. Kinda like a diary, yet, its still cool..ha ha...maybe not.
Anyway, one of the guys here was accusing me of doing this, and i, of course, denied it. ALOT. Then, it triggered me to remember about this. So, here i am. Again.
Been thinkin alot on the move to Alaska when i get back to Louisiana. There is a chance of only my wife and i making the move. The girls' dad doesn't seem to like the idea, which i can understand (i know i wasn't happy when the ex took my kids to NC). He is not in the greatest of health shape, and he never was much of a "caring" father, so most of the kids don't want to take care of him, yet, they are also nervous of leaving him. I am excited that as long as dennice goes with me, i will be completly happy, yet, i really want our girls to go too. It would seem weird without them. I know dennice desprately needs the break, but i also think it would cut her deep if she didnt have them with us. Not that i think she wouldn't be happy with us as well. Anyway, guess i will have to see how that one plays out.
Since i have come back from vacation, some things have been rattling around in my head. Every day i am stunned how much my wife means to me. She is the best thing other then our kids that i could have ever been blessed with. Her open honesty, her faith in us, her ability to calm any fears i have about anything with just a look, just being herself. I have put her through alot of crap she never deserved, and she took it all in stride, never changing her outlook. She has made me the man i am now. I trust her with all my heart, love her with all my soul, and believe in her with all my being. Thank you Elaina Dennice, for being you.
Being over here has really made me see things again. I know we will NEVER change these people, nor should we be trying. Their culture, mindset, outlook on life is so different then ours, it really makes tryin to work with them interesting. They will steal from us in a heartbeat, yet when we make any kind of mistake, they think we are trying to shame them, hurt them or just berate them on purpose. Its such hyprocasy that it sometimes makes you want to just throw your hands in the air and walk off. Of course, then your the bad guy. It really does make me miss home.
well, enough ranting for now.
Later
Moose