just more thoughts

well, the kids are in north carolina now. they are at least somewhat closer now. hopefully next summer they will be able to come here for a couple of months. that would be so cool if they can come down here and just be here with me and dennice.
she continues to amaze me everyday with her devotion and love. im somewhat scared that i might be in over my head but if i am, then heck, i better learn to swim i spose. she is so open and honest with me it makes me want to be the same with her. i am more open and honest and everything then i have ever been with anyone. i still have my green days (as she calls it) but overall i feel better then i have at any time in my life. it seems as if we are both waiting for the ball to drop, but i dont know what that might be.
her daughter starts school tomorrow. we went shopping yesterday for school clothes, that was an adventure. but hey, we had fun.
been looking into buying a house. not sure if i really want to do it, but i have to do something. there isnt anyway i want to keep things the way they are, with meg stayin other places and us being here all comfy. might try and get a nice brick house we found. think i can get it without using the VA loan, since that requires a 2 year committment to stay there. and with the way the army is going, who know if i will be here for that long.
gonna head to bed. hope all is well with you and yours.

WOOHOOO

SHE SAID YES!!! WOOOHOOOOO...im offically one of, if not THE, happiest man on the planet....
we went to the dinner at a nice italian place. took her daughter and her boyfriend. her daughter was in on it too. we finished dinner, and dennice was standing up ready to leave so i asked her if she was gonna finish her glass of wine. the ring was in megans purse and i couldnt figure out how to get it out without raising suspicion. lo and behold, megan knocked over a glass of water into james lap, which allowed me to get ahold of megs purse and dig out the ring. after all the commotion was over, i leaned over and told dennice...i love you more then life itself, will you marry me? then i placed the bag with the ring into her lap, which caused her to tear up, and then she broke out the ring. amazingly, (which is another sign of how this is going soooo well) the ring is a perfect fit.
no real plans on when or where we will do the ceremony. thinking maybe a spring wedding.
well...gonna go to bed and celebrate....

big step

well, its finally happened. Met a woman who makes me feel complete. she is my world, the alpha to my omega, my yin to my yang. Someone who makes me feel dizzy with love and lust at the same time when i gaze upon her. The mere mention of her name sends a shiver up my spine with expectation. I apologize if i havent mentioned her to any of you that read this, but she has completely consumed me with her presence. I plan on asking her to marry me tomorrow night. Even got a ring today. I asked her daughter to help me pick it out. Her daughter is a bright spot too. We click together and have alot of the same feelings about things. We have really gotten close over the last few weeks, and i even helped to get her her first car. Its nice, and i got to admit, im slightly jealous of it. But, she likes it and thats all that matters. If you want to know, when she smiled and gave me a hug when she saw it, it made my heart melt even more. If that was even possible.
But to be honest about elaina dennice keaton...wow..how can i describe or even explain about this woman...as some of you know i like to write poetry...well, she has shown me how the famous poets must have felt when they wrote of love, heartaches (when we are apart), and longing. When we are apart, my entire soul yearns to hear her voice, feel her touch, taste her lips, feel her hands rub the little bit of hair i maintain on my head. I could sit and stare at her face for a year and feel cheated when it was over. Kissing her makes my head spin, the thought of making love to her makes me weak all over and the thought of having her with me for the rest of my living days makes me almost fall prostrate with the sheer overwhelming joy.
If this is how love is sposed to be, i feel so cheated, yet, so happy that i finally found her. Her presence in my life has truly shown me how the Lord has a plan for everyone and everything. She makes me want to be the best man i can be. I want to be the man she has ever dreamed of, thought of, heard of. I want to make her friends jealous, her mom proud, her image of any other man tainted.
Her father was killed in Vietnam. I hope, since he did and i do think this profession is something to be proud of, i would like to think that i am treating his daughter right. I wont know until we are both up there at the same roll call, but he deserves a salute for his little girl. I only hope he is looking down and smiling at how happy she is making me. I pray that i can do the same for her.
Since we have gotten serious, i havent looked at another woman and wanted her. Dennice has filled the void that i have felt for most my life. If this is true love.....how unlucky and unhappy some people must be...that they will never feel this...how the memory of a kiss 2 days ago still makes you smile, the sound of their voice makes you shiver down to the heels in your boots while standing in the woods many miles away, how her face drifting across your memory can make your heart hurt because you want to feel her skin with your hands....her smile makes you forget where you are......
anyway, im going to bed. hoping tonight...i will be engaged to the most wonderful woman i have ever had the luck of even talking to...
i will post the results when i get the chance... :)
Aaron